Cowardice

This sucks. They cancelled my 1:30 class due to the lack of students enrolled. Now what am I going to do for an easy A? They did have an opening for a 12:00 Aerobics(or how ever it's spelled) class, but it's too close to lunch time for it to do me any good. I still may take it since there are 10 females in it and no guys at all.

I chickened out again today. Was going to ask the cute chick at the Drug Store if she'd like to go see a movie or have a drink tonight and when I got there I pussed out. I guess I'm living up to my old college nickname--"Cherry" Rob, and not my old-old college (fraternity) nickname. I need to find my testicles again and realize that I should be myself and screw the consequences. What's the worst a woman can to me? "Yes?" I've lived with failure most of my life and now I'm reduced to being a Clerk (37, in a row?).

I always bitch about what I should/could do with my life and instead of doing something about it, I continue to bitch. I guess you can call me "Dante." I should shit or get off the pot. It's time to grab the bull by the horns and start doing something with my life. I keep pining over exes and seem to be complacent with the situation because I'm too afraid that my heart will be broken again. Then again, maybe it won't be. I'm too afraid to risk it all on the chance of something wonderful and exciting. It's time to grow up and become a fuckin man.

On an up note, I have lost 5 pounds since I started my diet on Wednesday. The only thing that is killing me is that I'm not getting enough caffiene in my diet. I'm thinking about getting a caffiene IV drip set up for when I'm at work. At least I'm slowing becoming a smaller fat-ass than I was before and I do like my job.

Laters ya'll. (pronounced like a Valley hick (combination of a valley dude and red-neck))