Life Throws a Curve Ball at me again

Ok, I know that I haven't posted all that much in quite a while. I've been busy-work, life and someone that I loved very much. Turns out that she's still hung up on her ex and is afraid to hurt me. So for now we aren't together again. This really sucks!!!!!! I love her and miss her with all my heart and soul. I was ready to throw it all away just because I couldn't be with her. Then on the last time I see her she tells me that she still loves me, misses me and wants me to stay. WTF!!!!! So I change my plans and stay here, now she won't even talk to me. I'll just throw myself into work and get out of this financial hole that I'm in and then go from there.

Peace!!!