News from the Dr.

Ok, went to the Orthopaedic Surgeon today. He looked at the X-Rays and nothing too major. I have a few minor bone spurs on my left knee and arthritis. Thank goodness it's nothing major, he gave me some REALLY good pain killers for it at least. Not much else going on.

Found out tonight that an old roommate is in town this week, but his GF won't let him talk to me or let him out to hang out with me. Kinda sucks, but oh well, he made his choice.

Went to the bar tonight and the hot bartender gave me 5 beers for the price of one. Gotta love a woman like that. I keep asking her if she's trying to get me drunk and all she does is laugh. I would go for it, but she's had a BF for the last 2 years. I'm not the kinda guy who would take advantage of a situation like that. Oh, well.

That's all for now.

Piece!

Frigging Ouch!

Went to the doctor yesterday and he took a look at my bum knee. Told me a few things that I didn't know about. Things like: Smoking can kill you and being overweight isn't good for you. But seriously folks, I'm now on a diet to lose about 40 pounds, since I am at 260 now and I have to go to an Orthopaedic sergeon on Tuesday. Turns out that I may have really screwed up my leg this time. I should have gone to a Dr. sooner, but I really hate going to them in the first place.

Hopefully, it'll be something that they can take care of without anything major.

Let everyone know about it later.

Peace!

Frustration

Not so much with work or anything in general, actually it's everything in general. The new boss is good and wants to make the changes here that need to be done. The only thing is that he keeps baraging me with questions about stuff I should know, but haven't had time to get because I've been so busy just trying to keep the place afloat. It's frustrating because I know that I should be doing other things, but I wind up having to do everyone else's job because they are incompetent. He told me today that I can't be everywhere at once and that I need to make them do most of the work. It's really wearing on me, physically and mentally. I'm a service oriented person and want everyone to be served as soon as possible-not to have to wait on the staff to finish their conversation before they get to them.

I went out for a beer last night at my new favorite bar here in Corpus. It's not exactly an upscale place, but the beer is cheap and the service is great. The bartender that I normally go to is a hottie. She's got a great body, incredible sense of humor, and is fun to talk to. She's been giving me a lot of free beers almost since the first time I went in there. Whenever she's around it's buy one, get three free. It's not like it's going to break me to buy them, but she keeps undercharging me. The only problem is that she's been with her boyfriend for about 3 years now, so I know that she's not trying to get me drunk to take advantage of me (damn my luck!).

At least I am able to get some PTO so I can go to the doctor and get my knee looked at. It's been giving me hell for about 6 weeks now. It was ok for a few days and then it started to get bad again. The last 2 days I've woken up and it was swollen to almost twice it's normal size. I wish I wasn't so much a workaholic and was able to take things easy. Hopefully I'll be able to get something to where the pain will go away and get them healed quickly.

Anyhow, be good out there.

Six Years

Yeah, I know that today marks six years of lies. Read the post from this day last year, you'll understand what I mean. It really doesn't bother me like it used to. She had meant something to me, but now I realize that I was being used, and therefore means nothing to me.

I've been free of her influence for 2 years now, nothing she could say or do would affect me. In December it will mark six years of freedom on paper. Janurary marked 2 years of freedom from her in reality.

I'm kinda geting the hang of being single, but the "aloneness" is what I dislike. Why can't I find someone to make me whole again? Am I too hard to get along with? Or is it because I have such high standards for what I want in life?

Oh well, I'll survive and become stronger everyday.

Be good everyone.

PEOPLE

I've been a relatively good mood, until last night. I went to one of the bars where I'm somewhat a regular. I know that when the waitresses are busy, but when you walk by me and not even ask if I need another beer, that is ridiculous. I waited almost 15 minutes with an empty beer infront of me. I could understand if I was an ass towards them, but I tip well and treat everyone with respect. That's the last time I'll ever go there again, and I'll let others know not to go there either.

Then I went to my other favorite bar and everything was great as usual. I am smart when I go to this place though. Instead of sitting at a table, I sit at the bar. Carol, the bartender at that bar is incredible. She's hot, funny, and can keep up with business and still take time to visit. She knows my rule of only 3 beers a night, but she's one of the few that can talk me into more--I had 4 last night. The great thing is that she hardly ever charges me for all of my drinks. My tab last night was only $3. Got to love bars like that.

After that I went to the worst place to go shopping. I was wanting to buy a new microwave, so I went to the nearest Wal-Mart. I always go straight to the electronics department, but right when I get there, they tell me that it's closed. Ok, I can see that they may need to do somethings like that from time to time, but I was planning on buy some things in that department. I then limp over to the housewares department and grab a microwave off the shelves. I throw it up on my shoulder and make my way towards the cashiers. I hobble over there and realize that I need to get some popcorn. I grab that and then get into line at the cashiers. I have people with credit card problems, too many items for the express lane and just general idiots. I see another line open and ask the cashier if she was open. She said she was. Just as I get over there one of the rudest people rushes into line in front of me. This woman wasn't even in line and she claims that her basket was "holding" her place in line, but she was nowhere to be seen when I walked over. She proceeds to put all of her things on the belt and then has the never to ask me if I want to put my things on her "buggy" so I don't have to carry them anymore. I just look at her and say that this is ridiculous. I put my stuff on the floor right there and walk off. The cashier and the woman who was finishing her transaction then proceed to tell that woman that I was next and not her. I then proceed to limp off to my car and realize that I will NEVER give them my business EVER again.

I finally realize that the American people are rude, crass, and worthy of anything that comes their way. I myself am an American by choice, but a Texan by birth. I just wish that my 5 year plan would happen quicker, so I can get the hell out of this damn place.

Do unto others.

St Paedrig's Day

Ok, I pretty much explained how I felt about this "holiday" last year. I've heard so many stereotypes about an Irishman and they are all wrong. If they had a holiday where they made fun of other ethnic groups, it would never happen. All I've heard is that the Irish are beligerant drunks from the local people today. How come I don't hear them telling stereotypes on Martin Luther King day about black people? Or about Mexican's on Cinco de Mayo? It's because they know that it's wrong to do that.

The only day most of these people will ever try corned beef is today and then drink themselves into oblivion. Then why don't they have fried chicken and watermelon on MLK day, or tacos and tequila on Cinco de Mayo? Because it's "ok" to make fun of a "white" minority and not the non-white minorities. These people are ignorant about the Irish people.

Did you know that while the Dark Ages were going on, the only repository of knowledge was in Ireland? A recent discovery revealed that Ireland is also the location of mythical Atlantis. The Irish are a peaceful, educated people. What about "Americans?" If you look around, we are an illeterate, war-like people. Then why are we denegrating an incredible culture? Because as American's we are afraid of things we don't understand.

Sure the Irish have a reputation for being fighters, but so would you if your people were enslaved for over one THOUSAND years. Yeah, it's a shame that the blacks were enslaved for over 300 years, but they were enslaved by their OWN people. We were not. We were occupied by the ENGLISH and made their slaves for a lot longer than the blacks were. Sure we weren't "slaves," but does the noose not exsist regardless. We had no rights, no freedom, not allowed to practice our faiths, speak our language, or even travel. I am all for paying reparations to the decendants of slaves as soon as the English pay reparations to the decendants of the Irish. Once they apologize and make amends, then, and only then will I willingly put aside my anger towards the inbred English.

Yes, I know this sounds a bit militant, but in an age where all other minority groups are given special considerations, why can't we get the same? Before you talk about another person's culture, learn about them. Not just the people, but the history, the culture, and even the language. You poor sad people that judge others without knowing their past is the reason why racism still exsists.

Think about it!

Time to get into shape

Well all, I've decided that it is now time for me to get off my arse and get back into shape. I've been heavy for a few years now and it's time that I got back into shape. Next week, I'm joining the gym here and probably buying a cheap mountain bike to ride on my free time. Being over 250 pounds and only 6 foot tall is starting to wear on this old body. I figure when I get back down to 220, I should be really good. At least when I get back into shape, it'll be easier for me to regain my focus in life and in everything else. I may even go so far as to become slightly vegetarian. I'll still eat meat at least once a day, but mostly eat a lot of fruits and vegetables and a lot of carbs, just for the energy.

Been spending the last few days helping a friend on the phone. She's been having problems with her ex/current boyfriend. He's a total idiot and is playing games with her heart. He's a little kid and doesn't appreciate that she's a good person. She's attractive, intelligent and has a great personality. The only problem is that she's too young for me and she doesn't think of me in a romantic way. I hope that she'll wake up and realize that she needs to cut her losses and move on with her life and get rd of him.

Peace!

Sorry I haven't posted in a while

Been a lot going on lately. Really, really busy at work and loving every minute of it. I went to Houston this last weekend. Love the town and some of the people, but damn! I spent waaayyy too much time out late. I can't do this late night shit anymore. Jerry lives like he has no cares in the world. I can't do that anymore. Love all of them. I had to get the hell out of there on Sunday because I couldn't stand being in that town and not being able to talk to the last woman I loved. As long as I stay busy, I'm ok, but when I get some time to think about things I start to really miss her. One day I may get the guts up to talk to her again, or at least try to see her once again. I may one day talk about her in this venue, but not for now.

I got a good movie the other day--"A day without a Mexican." Pretty good one, a little strange. but good. Also got "Wings of Desire," by Wim Wenders-it was the basis for "City of Angels." Spent the other day fixing the computer because it had a bug in it--Damn Windows, but at least it isn't XP. I need to get a life because this being alone really sucks.

I may get the nerve up to ask out one of the women at the university here. My office manager keeps trying to get me to ask her out. She also thinks that I need to get a life and get a woman. She's cute, but I don't have the guts to ask her out yet. I may just see if she'd like to go to dinner this weekend, who knows, she may even say "yes."

That's all for now.

Everyone be good to each other, until I get back.

Peace!

Another Rough Week

Had one of my worthless staff memebers call in sick on Monday and Tuesday, so I had to do her job. It's not that bad, but I'm having to do 3 other peoples jobs as well, so it gets real OLD. Had 2 of my student workers tell me that their last day is going to be tomorrow because they said they have found a "better" job. THe only problem is that they never bothered to give me a 2 weeks and that I'm the one that gives references. They didn't just screw work, they screwed me. Anyone who knows me knows that I don't forget who screws me.

Been a little down about myself lately. I've been alone for a while and it's really starting to get to me. I really would like to find someone whom I can share my time with. I know that I've been alone for a long time and for a while I was ok with it, but DAMN! I don't think that I'm an ugly person and that I'm a good guy, but I can't ever seem to find a woman who I'm compatible with. Why won't women give me a chance? It's been rough for me because I crave attention and love. The only time I seem to find it, it goes sour. Why do women say that they want a "nice guy," but when one's in their face, they don't want him? My office manager told me that I need to find a girlfriend because I'm starting to get a little strange at work. I wish that it was that easy for me. I've always had a problem with talking to women. They scare the hell out of me and I'm afraid to get hurt. Every woman that I meet, whom I find attractive is with someone. Oh well, one day I'll meet the one for me (unless I've already met her and screwed it up).

On a good note, my raise finally can through, only 3 months later. Now I can't wait for my retro check to hit. That should be all for now.

Peace!