DAMN!!!

I can't believe the price of gas now. It's over $3 a gallon, WTF??? Anyhow, was supposed to go to Houston this weekend, won't happen now, would cost me a shitload of money to get there now. On another note, still have to go to the wedding later in the month. Should be intresting. Still hear from her every single day, sometimes 3 or 4 times a day. She even talked about what her mom said to her about dating me. I wouldn't mind, but I don't want a long distance relationship. Besides if we went out, someone would fall in love and get hurt and I don't want the hurt or to hurt her. She's one of the few that I look forward to talking to all the time. She's one of the few that I can talk to about anything and I will always be there for her whenever she needs me. Yeah, I know, it sounds like I'm falling for her. I'm not, but I can see how easily it would be to fall for her. The longer I've known her the more I realize that she is the type of woman that I want, but she needs to be more than she is now. She's grown a lot since I first met her, but not quite ready for what I want and need in life. Who knows, maybe she will one day. But until then I'm going to live life for myself, but still make time for those I care for.

Think on that for a while.

Ok, I need a little advice on this

As I've posted before, I've got this really cute female friend who always comes to me for advice and stuff. She calls me all the time, when she's at friends houses, at home, on the road, and worst of all, right before she goes to sleep. Not a day goes by that she doesn't call me, most of the time it's about mundane shit, but sometimes it's about guys or her meds or her family. I told her that I'll probably run up there this weekend since she's going back to school next week. She was extactic about this idea. She then told me that she wants me to meet her friends up there, before she has me meet her parents. She even told people that I'm her best friend and that I know more about her than anyone else. When I first met her, I wanted her in a bad way, but now the illusions are gone. I still would do just about anything for her, but as a friend. Don't get me wrong, I think she's cool and very attractive, but she even said the only way she'd go out with me is if hell froze over. I told her that wasn't nice, I am great guy and all, but way too harsh. She said that hell has frozen over quite a few times for her. She then told me that she hasn't really been on that many dates and was talking about her new "date clothes." She knows that I haven't really been attached to anyone in quite a while (try 2 1/2 yers to be specific). She also knows that I don't like the bullshit games that people play with eachother. And that is one of the main reasons why we get along.

Here's my dilema: Should I take her out when I go up there on a real date or just hang out with her? Obviously she has feelings for me, otherwise why am I the main person she goes to for advice and everyday shit? She was telling me tonight that all these guys want her, but she's going back to school in a week and it's not fair for them or her. I think what she wants is someone who is honest and open with her. I want to tell her that I would go out with her and what she does there is her business, but I would like to know, if I manage to get her to admit that she feels more than a friendship for me. Anyhow, that's the stuff I've having to deal with in my life.

The lines are open for comment.

Peace!

Damn

Another great comedian has died. There is a new trend in comedy--racial comedy. There are two pioneers in the new generation of comedians--Carlos Mencia and Freddy Soto. Carlos as we all know has a show on comedy central. I'll admit it is pretty good. Freddy on the other hand was just breaking out to the big time in comedy. He had a cameo in "Spanglish." Admittedly it wasn't that good of a movie, but his performance was good as always.

Freddy grew up in El Paso (same town as I did), so a lot of is material revolved around his family and the way people were in this town. He talked about 'Beaners" and "Rednecks" a few times in some of his shows. He had shot a pilot for UPN and then for CBS. The networks had started to realize that they need to appeal to the growing "minority" in this country. Alas, both pilots never saw the light of day, much to the loss of the American viewing public. He had a special on Comedy Central a few years back and was one of the "Three Amigos" of comedy.

He went to El Paso High School, the very same high school my sister and mother went to. Not only that, but most of my mom's family went there as well as my brother in law. Freddy used to work at the Whataburger by UTEP and used to go to Juarez on the weekends. I first ran into Freddy at a bar called the CopaCabana in Juarez. It was one of those open warehouse discos of the 80's. He moved to LA a couple of years later. In 1992 or so I was at a Christmas party with my sister and her friends and ran into him there. He was talking about how different LA was from El Paso.

A few years later I was living in Dallas and heard him on the radio doing some really funny shit. I knew that I had to go see him. His routine was good and talking to him afterwards was great. Last year I went to see him in El Paso with a friend of mine. After the show I talked to him for a bit and got invited to a party afterwards. I really wanted to go, but had a very long day and the girls I was with didn't want to go. I rememeber asking him about his daughter and his eyes lit up. He was so proud.

I was messing around on the net last night and saw that he had passed away last month. Damn, he was my age for chrissakes. He left behind a loving wife, a beautiful daughter, a loving family, and friends that will miss him greatly.

I'm hoping that Carlos does a tribute to Freddy with his new found fame.

Rest In Peace Alfredo Soto, Jr.

Strange things are happening

Funny thing about what's going on in my life. Today the boss told me to come in later tomorrow, so I can get used to the later hours when school starts. My friend in Houston/Alpine called me twice again today. The last time was right before she went to bed. I guess I was the last one she wanted to talk to before she went to sleep. I'm thinking she's got a crush on me. I really don't know what to do. She's really cute, and I was wanting to go out with her in the past, mostly to help me get over someone else. As I got to know her, we became pretty good friends. That's one of my biggest problems, I'm afraid to lose a friend by dating them. I'm afraid she's got a problem with our age differences (I'm 13 years older). Oh well, I'll take it as it comes.

On that note, I'm off to sleep.

Peace!

I got a good laugh out of this.

I've got a friend who is really cute. Every time she has a problem, she comes running to me (mostly on the phone). I've helped talk her through a few the past few months (her ex-boyfriend being a total ass, having an anxiety attack, venting about her parents). On average, she calls me about once a day, unless she's out of town or busy. It's kinda nice being needed by someone attractive.

So yesterday, in the middle of her anxiety attack, she calls me because "Rob's the only one who can calm me down by talking to me." In the middle of all this her mom walks into her room and starts talking to her. Her mom asked who she keeps calling whenever she needs help. She tells her that "it's my best friend, Rob." Her mom then asks why didn't we go out if I'm always the one she goes to for anything. Don't get me wrong, I'd like to date her, but she lives back home during the school year and in Houston during the summer months. The logistics just wouldn't work out. That and sex does change a relationship more than you'd expect. No matter how good it is, you'll never be able to go back to being "just friends." Then again friends with benefits is a great idea.

Peace!